Sunday, June 28, 2009

I did something which I regret yesterday. I don't want to blame anyone but myself. I totally hate myself now.

Friday, June 26, 2009

3 things...

1. Yucky swine flu. 95 new cases, totaling the number to 315. WTH! Lucky, it's not deadly. Sianz man~

http://swineflu.breaking.sg/2009/06/25/singapore-reports-95-new-cases-of-h1n1-total-315/


2. I seriously hate being shouted at! Makes me feel so worthless and seriously, sometimes I do wonder why do I have to tolerate this type of nonsense. So 没道理。Anyway, Diana said that she may get high blood pressure coz she gets pissed off so easily. Hm.. somehow, I also get pissed off easily leh. Yucks! But the thing is.. We never manage to piss each other off although we did try to. On purpose also cannot. Haha~

3. I've collected my graduation gown. Yet to take a photo in it though. Will do so soon bah..

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I've just read some reviews and comments that the companies (Dirad and Dreamworks) at 9B Mosque Street isn't good. Hm.. That time I went for an interview at Dirad in 9B Mosque Street and well.. it's a complete waste of my time. Anyone with similar experiences can comment on the tagboard. Need to educate the public lor. Yucks! I hate this kind of misleading companies! I am quite certain that they are part of the Cobra Group.

Show you guys this:

"The Cobra Group PLC is a self-professed UK-based MNC, but the truth is far below. Cobra Group reportedly started in Manly, Australia. Apparently, they have grown so fast that they now have offices in over 20 countries and are rapidly expanding (statistics proved otherwise in Australia alone!). In truth, they are just a hybrid organisation offering services under the brand name “Human Commercials”. Human Commercials is just another Cobra Group marketing ploy that simply means “direct marketing”. Cobra Group also shares striking resemblance to organisations such as DS-MAX, AMWAY, and many other MLM driven companies, both in their organisation structure, and sales tactics."

"A common interviewing formula used by the independent sales offices consists of:

1. A very short first round interview conducted in the office of the manager. Typically in this interview the manager will briefly outline the structure of the business to the potential new distributor. A typical DS-Max manager will interview anywhere from 10 to 30 people a day so this first interview is usually short on detail and any prolonged question and answer sessions are avoided if possible.

2. A full day "second interview" in the sales field where the potential distributor shadows a current distributor while they attempt to sell their products or services door-to-door. This full day interview is an attempt to show the potential distributor how a typical day in the field works. This full day interview, like the first interview is purposefully vague on details and most questions are not answered fully or more difficult questions get passed on to the manager/owner to handle during the final interview. This is known within DS-MAX circles as the "Day of Observation" or the "Day of O".

3. A "final interview" takes place in the manager's office when the potential distributor returns after a full day in the field. If the applicant has any problems or objections, the manager may attempt to overturn them. If the potential distributor needs some clarification in order to understand the "big picture" of this business opportunity the manager will attempt to explain the business beyond just selling products door-to-door. The goal of every manager is to encourage the interviewee to start full time the very next day."

the following infomation was found on this site: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DS-MAX

DS-Max ("Direct Sales to the Maximum"), or more precisely D S Max USA Inc [1] and its affiliates, is a direct sales company that originally specialized in selling discount/overstock/damaged merchandise directly to the public, and later expanded to include sales of discount coupons, telecommunications contracts like AT&T, credit card processing services and other sales packages on behalf of more service based industries.

Haiz~ Be warned!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I am an adult and I wanna be treated like one. There's a reason why the government allows people to drink at 18. Anyway, I am old enough to be responsible for my own actions and I will be responsible for myself. I am capable of making my own decisions. I don't need/appreciate any unnecessary "help/suggestions/advices". Maybe this may sound mean but I just want to do the things I want to do. Why can't I? I'm not harming anyone, I'm not breaking the law. I seriously believe that everyone has the basic human rights not to do things they like. Gosh, I feel so stifled and unhappy that I cannot sleep.. again~

That's why I went to google about overprotectiveness.

http://www.indiaparenting.com/articles/data/art09_012.shtml

http://www.jewishaz.com/jewishnews/030704/parents.shtml

"Overprotective parents hurt kids in more ways than one." I agree with this.

"Being overprotective prevents children from experiencing life, both the positive and the challenges." Yes, I just wanna experience life, enjoying the positive things and embrace challenges myself.

"There was an incident a few years ago where my daughter's whole class was invited to a party - except for two students. While the mother of the birthday girl was obviously wrong in allowing her daughter to exclude two children, the parents of the two girls handled it in entirely different ways. One called the mother of the birthday girl and demanded that her child be included, which she was - begrudgingly. The other mom let her daughter hurt, consoling her, but not interfering. Did the first mom prevent her daughter from hurting? Of course not. The emotional pain came from not being invited in the first place. All that child learned was that she's not emotionally strong enough to handle rejection and that her mom will always step in to take care of her.

If as an adult that girl isn't invited to the wedding of a co-worker, will she expect her mom to call and insist on an invitation?" Frankly speaking, I prefer to be the child of the mother who let me hurt yet will console me.

"All children need an opportunity to explore the world physically and emotionally without constant interference from their parents in order to become confident, responsible and independent adults." How true.

The above applies to boyfriends/husbands. You must trust that your girlfriends/wives can take care of themselves. They also need to experience many parts and parcels of life without you okie? You don't have to prevent them from hurting. Like the mother who let the child hurt, you guys also let your girlfriends/wives hurt, just be there to support and console them if they need. I'm sure that's all they need. They don't need any interference. Then they can emerge as a stronger person who knows how to resolve her own problems. I think this will be good for their emotional well-being. Lastly, although on the surface, it's care and concern for your other half, but in actual fact, they feel so suffocated. Over time, I think it will make them feel useless coz they will begin to doubt their decisions and in the worst scenario, they can't even make decisions for themselves. So if you all really love your other half, you would do things that will benefit them in the long run =) It may not be easy but I believe if you really love them, you can do it.

Ah ha! So everyone, just leave me alone okie? Even if I fall, let me fall. I'll learn my lessons and pick myself up. Don't worry, if I need help, I'll cry for help.
OMG! So many people contacted swine flu liao. Scary man!

http://www.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20090622-150006.html
Sometimes I'm scared and worried that happiness is short-lived. Argh! I must get rid of this type of negative thoughts =/ By the way, I've regained my appetite these 2 days and have been eating a lot. As a result, think I've gained back the weight I've lost. Sigh~

Monday, June 22, 2009

This is so cute. I want a stress free life!
For Verlene, do smile more.. Cheer up =)
I have no more time and energy to mind many people's business and find out what they are up to. Got many things to deal with already. I might as well save my energy up for more important and worthwhile stuff =) After all, people and things change. It's sad but I have to accept it. I am sick and tired of feeling sad. And I also realise.. Many people/friends can be there during good times but how many people can be there to really help and support you/me in bad times? I dare not claim to be a good friend but I will try to be an Aunt Agony to people who deserve it =)

PS: Do give me some time to upload photos.
PPS: I am craving for fried chicken wings!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Argh!! I hate to blog about negative and sad things coz I think my blog is already saddening enough. But it's late already now and I don't wish to bother/burden anyone with my trouble(s). Just now I was so sleepy as I watched some videos so I decided to turn off my laptop and sleep. However, tears just rolled down my cheeks as I lay on my bed. I feel suffocated and I cannot breathe. I hate people to flood my phone, I hate people to question me and I hate people to tell me to entertain them just because they are bored. Hello?!?! I'm not an entertainer, I don't get paid, so why should I entertain you (people)?

Oh well~ I feel so tired of everything. I need a break from all of this. Maybe one day I should just disappear and take a long trip by myself. Hm.. That would be cool. I wish that there's still summer programme for me to join lor.

That day, I watched Kelvin and Kimberly's wedding video. It is really touching. Can go through long distance together. Hm.. I admire couples who can overcome the long distance hurdle. At least, one party didn't selfishly demand the other party to stay because of him/her and let him/her soar higher for his/her/their future. Hm.. Will I ever meet someone who can have my interest(s) at heart? Someone who truly loves me, someone who is afraid of pissing me off, someone who can make me happy.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I cannot sleep! Argh!! So I'm gonna blog about what I've been doing. Lately I've just blogged about my thoughts and feelings but not about my activities.

Last Friday, 12/6, I wasted my time to be attached to a trainer to do a "residential project" when it's all about sales. Speaking of it just simply makes me mad! And it's in Serangoon, like so damn far. Reached home only at 9pm plus. It's exhausting and I've rejected the job. I think and feel that many companies are not defining/explaining their job scope properly and they wanna con people to do sales. Companies are so smart nowadays, they can set the wages as all commission based. Then if the employee didn't help to bring in any revenue/sales, the company didn't have to fork out a single cent to pay him. So good hor?

Didn't do anything much on Sat, 13/6. Just went to PS. But did have a good talk with Jeff. Well, hope so it's good lah.

As I've mentioned, 14/6, I went to a wedding dinner at Jurong West Safra Club. Photos will be uploaded later as I'm just simply lazy now. Paiseh. Or I'll upload them altogether in facebook one day.

10/6, I went to explore the NUS Alumni and Guild House. Photos will be uploaded on facebook =)

Suddenly, it feels like there's so much negativity in my life. Hello?!?!?! Life is supposed to be good now since I'm neither studying or working. Although the job seeking process is damn sianz but.. it certainly is less stressful than studying or working right? Alamak! What's wrong with my life siah? On the other hand, when I think about it seriously, nothing much seems to be wrong right? Am I too free until I make a mountain out of a molehill? Then actually when I look at other people's problems, they also seem very minor leh. Hm.. Is there something which can drive away the negativity in me and the people around me?

Lastly, how to be more thick-skin and less self-conscious? I want!! Oh, and my commencement is on 7/7. Who wanna come? But cannot go in and sit. Got to stand outside and wait. And I don't know need to wait how long. No idea how long the ceremony will take.

Monday, June 15, 2009

On Sunday, 14/6, I attended a wedding with Jeffery. It's a joyous occasion =) Congrats to the couple. Then I have 2 conflicting thoughts. 1. I also wanna get married. Yay! 2. I do not have the confidence to get married. It's not easy to live with someone who has different living habits, etc from you. Hm.. But one thing I wanna do.. Make my husband drunk on the wedding day. Lolx~ Coz it sounds fun! And I wanna be in the 姐妹涛 (dunno if the tao is the correct chinese word) and make things difficult for the brothers. Haha~ Sounds fun. Quick my gal friends, faster get married xD Then hor.. If I wanna get married, I wonder who I can ask to be in my 姐妹涛?
This post is dedicated to Diana~

Cheer up gal =) I'm here for you.
Time for some entertaining videos =)







愛永遠都是難題 失去分寸太容易 誰都是凡人 不夠小心翼翼
有時候忘了珍惜 傷害來的太無意 有時愛太急 需要空間呼吸
爭吵愈狠痛愈深刻 然後不斷自責 我們都忘了最初的快樂
擁抱越緊痛愈深刻 誰不會捨不得 現在我給的或許並不是你要的

如果分離是唯一的解脫 最後的話我來說
如果永遠你不必再難過 遺憾讓我來過
就算過去的回憶太脆弱 連未來也沒有我 愛著你 仍是我的執著

讓你哭泣對不起 為了愛承受委屈 說過的承諾 其實還沒忘記
愈是在乎的關係 愈是相處不容易 傷害了你 我也失去勇氣
爭吵愈狠痛愈深刻 然後不斷自責 我們都忘了最初的快樂
擁抱越緊痛愈深刻 誰不會捨不得 現在我給的或許並不是你要的

如果分離是唯一的解脫 最後的話我來說
如果永遠你不必再難過 遺憾讓我來過
就算過去的回憶太脆弱 連未來也沒有我 愛著你 仍是我的執著

走到感情關鍵時候 卻握不住你的手 還能有 什麼藉口 讓愛再回頭
多少的愛說不出口 就讓時間幫我說話 我一個人拼命掙扎
總比兩個人一起難過還好吧

如果分離是唯一的解脫 最後的話我來說
如果永遠你不必再難過 遺憾讓我來過
就算過去的回憶太脆弱 連未來也沒有我 愛著你 仍是我的執著
愛著你 唯一的解脫

The lyrics is so touching... It's difficult to find 伟大 and selfless people nowadays...

Friday, June 12, 2009

Some people 见不得别人好。 Their lives suck so they wanna make the lives of those around them suck. Whatever happen to the seeing other people happy, you will be happen kind of thing? I thought happiness is contagious.

Some people also say sorry and expect to be forgiven. Hm.. I thought when you are sincere in your apology, you should hope to be forgiven and not expect to be forgiven.

I miss having fun. I really do. Can all these be a nightmare and I wake up to find myself back in 2008? Anyway, Jieying, all the best in your exchange programme. Sorry, cannot go pitstop with you people tonight. Let's meet up when you are back bah. Have fun =)

Thursday, June 11, 2009

I wanted to sleep just now but I can't. Still feel like bursting.

Today was one of the worst days. Went for an interview at DBS, PWC building. Due to me not being in the mood to redo my resume last night, I thought of doing it this morning. But I overslept and woke up in the afternoon. Rewrote some parts of the resume before getting ready to go down for the interview. Oh, and there was something wrong with the MS Word. Cannot copy and paste. Argh! As I was getting late, I took a cab down. The cab driver drove one extra round around the place before dropping me off at the wrong buliding. WTH! I still got to walk back. He got no ethics lor. Don't know how to go say don't know how to go lah. Bluff me said always fetch people from PWC and know the way very well. WTH! And in my rush to the place, a taxi almost knocked me down.

So nevermind, I was late for the interview. Did a speed and accuracy test before going into the interview room. The interviewer did commented why was I late. She was going to mark me as absent already. Yeah, I'm so sorry about being late. Haiz~ Anyway, she asked me some tough questions. Eg: What do you think of DBS? Wah.. I was stunned coz.. hm.. don't know why also. And still got other questions which I don't think I've handled them well. Don't think that I can get the job. Then the interviewer actually said that I should read up more on the company and job positions available, etc. Haiz~ So sad lor. Yeah, I should have done my homework beforehand. Opportunity wasted.

After that, I was going to meet my mum for dinner when someone called me. There goes my one day of peace. OMG! One day of peace~ It's just one bloody day also cannot. I still feel like bursting coz I totally cannot sleep now which will affect me tomorrow. Same old cycle repeats. It gets really annoying. Anyway, becoz of all these, I got lectured and nagged at by my mum. Like wth~ I also didn't do anything wrong.

On the way home, there was this gal who turned on her hp so loud on the bus, thinking that everyone appreciates her music. Oh my~ What happened to being considerate these days? Why are people not being considerate anymore? Then my mp3 got no batt and the bus broke down. I was stuck in the bus and it was extremely hot. And I dropped my earring, and it broke. Sad-ded~

Now, I got to force myself to do something I've never enjoyed doing. I hate reporting. Gee!! It's like I'm under probation or something. Don't know why, I've done nothing wrong, why am I being treated this way? Anyway, the feeling of distrust is getting stronger. All of a sudden, I hate my life now. I want a new life yet I don't want to die. Maybe I should suffer from amnesia? So that I can forget about everything. The question is.. how to suffer from amnesia? Go and knock my head? I don't understand how come people who are supposed to love me are so bent on ruining my life. Now, I'm really unhappy, maybe the person is rejoicing somewhere. He can pop champagne and enjoy it.

Hm.. does it sound like a very bad day?
It's getting harder and harder to feel happy. Right now, I just wish to isolate myself and cheer myself up. Even if it's for one day. I am so in need of tranquility.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Got things to do but not really in the mood to do them. Am feeling tired too. Sometimes I really wonder.. Were we enemies in our previous lives that you have to hate me that much? If not, why do you always have to annoy me and spoil my happy day? And I am useless enough to be affected.

Watched my first 3D show - Monsters and Aliens. The show is okie lah, so-so. Quite funny but not really my type of show.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Twitter is the in thing now. Okie, when I'm free, I might join.
Carmen is right. The job seeking process is damn tiring and sianz. Especially when the job calls for a cover letter. Haiz~
Just now, I was bo liao and I went to check nuffnang. I got only $0.20. So little!! So people, please click on the ads. Haha~

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Gee~!! Facebook is making me pek chek. Takes such a long time to upload photos and my photos aren't in order so I have to delete them and upload them again. Then now, I have to upload a few photos by a few photos. Can't select all and upload it at once. Like really WTH~! Grrr!! And my windows live mail is giving me problems. Haiz~!

Anyway, had a great day yesterday. Went to do fish spa with Calin at Qian Hu Fish Farm.

The pond where we did our fish spa.


Fishes, come to mama~ Haha~


It looks kinda scary =/


Calin and me.


Lolx~ This is cute =)


Saw some damn expensive fishes. Like there's a fish called premium high gold cross back which costs $5,188. Wow~

This is how the $5,188 fish looks like.


There are many other fishes photos which I've taken. Am uploading them on my facebook. Haha~ It's good that one album in facebook can take up to 200 photos now. Last time can only store 60 photos per album then I got to have so many albums =/

Anyway, Jeffery met us at Lot 1 after our fish spa. Whew! The weather is HOT! Anyway, we took 190 down to Central as Calin wanna check out this new pastry cum cake shop. But in the end, cannot find it there. Like so dotz. Next, we went to have dinner at Pepper Lunch. Got a 30% discount. Haha~

My dream car. Yay! Speaking of that, I need a driving license but I haven't overcome my fear of driving =(


My graduation gift. Is it cute? I want flowers on my grad day! xD


Cute Tigger?


I love my birthday book cum organiser.


Can you spot my birthday?



See how cute it is? =P


Nowadays got one little boy who is trying to piss me off everyday. Boo hoo~ Meanie~!! Calin and I were quite bo liao yesterday. We tried to compare who reached home first if she took 502 and I took 190. In the end, we reached home at about the same time. Haha~

PS: Seems like my English proficiency level is deteriorating. My blog isn't well written. Boo hoo~ Shall improve on it the next time. Now, am tired already. Nightz =)
Something I've just came across...

男孩和女孩从小就认识,男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾,每次男孩总是满载而归,女孩却是两手空空,女孩总是失落的含着眼泪,独自一个人回到家,然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前,男孩敲响女孩家的门,女孩一见是男孩,扭头就走,男孩追上前,对女孩说:“对不起,我把你的虾都捉走了,给,我把它们养在小鱼缸里,送给你。”女孩眉头一放,慧心的笑了,就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年,转眼,他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起” 。


男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩,经常会把女孩逗到哭,然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止,直到长大后,也是如此。

男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有,然后躲在远处,看女孩着急的走投无路,等着女孩拨通他的手机,然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩,依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来,灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车,任由女孩在一旁发牢骚,男孩却暗自窃喜,然后委屈的对女孩说:“对不起,我知道错了。”随即,女孩便会柔弱下来,告诉男孩下次不允许那样,男孩点头,于是,那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
—— “对不起”的快乐 。



大学毕业后,男孩和女孩各自有了工作,男孩的工作总是很忙,有时一个月都休息不到一次,而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她,终于,他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来,可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩:“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于,女孩还是忍不住,主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交,可每次,都是女孩先妥协。

那年,女孩生日,男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日,女孩欣喜不已,她在家精心打扮,等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日,这一等就是凌晨,女孩在睡梦中醒来,脸上挂着泪痕,男孩见到女孩,心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕:“对不起,嫁给我好吗?”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。



婚后,男孩的事业大有成就,经常有许多应酬,而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了,每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭,把家里收拾的干干净净,她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着,男孩总问他为什么,女孩却总是慧心的一笑。

慢慢的,男孩每次回家,身上总是充满了不同的香水味道,而每次没等女孩问,男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然,那时起,女孩不太爱说话了,也不像以前那么开朗了,她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里,抱着枕头看韩剧,然后随着剧情哭泣,夜深时,就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里,男孩回来时,身上的香水味只有一种味道了,女孩从来不问,可是男孩依旧说:“对不起,今天又去应酬了。”
—— “对不起”,谎言的开始。



渐渐的,男孩开始不回家,或总是在外出差,男孩的事业越来越好,身边都是奉承的人,他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着,而女孩,几乎不出门了,她总会去超市买上很多方便面,和一些必要的日用品,然后把自己关在家里,这一呆就是很久。从前,女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天,而现在,她孤身一人,身边没有一个可以说话的人,每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家,男孩总是仓促的回答到:“对不起,我太忙了。”女孩,失落的扣上电话,那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
—— “对不起”,只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子,开始打扮自己,她觉得男孩不回家,也许是看腻了她,她决定不再颓废,自己的幸福应该靠自己争取,而不是无谓的后退。

那天,女孩心血来潮,按照地址去了男孩工作的地方,那是女孩第一次去,也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯,来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方,她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落,这里的一切,她都觉得很好看。终于,绕过长长的办公走廊,她来到男孩的办公室,轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了,眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫,也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子,更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩,而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上,******的发出微弱的呻吟声,那个男人,仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……

许久,男孩才发现了女孩,男孩惊慌失措,忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩,转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去,追着女孩,那晚,大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊,径直往前跑,往回家的方向跑,男孩在女孩后面大喊:“对不起,我还是爱你的,对不起,我真的只爱你。”可女孩,始终没有听见。
—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。


男孩一直都没有找到女孩,女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗,无心工作,无心花天酒地,他想不到女孩可以去哪里,因为女孩没有朋友,她唯一的朋友就是男孩,男孩终日守着电话机,手机24小时不关机,怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。

快递为男孩送来一个盒子。

男孩打开一看,里面是许多河虾的标本,有的在树叶边休息,有的在水草里躲着,各式各样的河虾标本,旁边放着一封信。


“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你,可能是我太懦弱,也或许是我根本不想见到你,我想这些『警告:注意文明用语!』应该过的没什么两样吧,我很好,我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活,我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己,而不用每天等着你回家,为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜,直到凉了也不见你的人,我的手机已经不用了,因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机,让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己,珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想,我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的,因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。

离婚协议书,就压在鱼缸的底下,你签完字,按照地址给我寄过来就行了。

对不起,我想我是真的累了。”


男孩按照地址找去,他满心希望能够见到女孩,然后让女孩原谅,并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她,可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲,而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。

女孩的父亲告诉男孩,女孩在写完这封信后,跳楼自杀了,血肉一片模糊。
—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。


那一年,男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头,一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人,不是每一句的对不起,都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人,那对谁,都不好……把这个故事传下去,让你的朋友们知道,不要随意地说出对不起......

Don't simply say sorry and hope that you can be forgiven for all your wrongs. Hm.. Something I've always believed in.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

I've got many things to blog about but I feel more and more lazy to blog. Don't know how life can suddenly become so interesting with so many things happening. Happy, sad stuff etc.. also have.

Anyway, on Monday, 1/6, went to Jeffery's house to return him his sweater and take back my DVD in the morning. Regarding us, I don't know what to say. Things are well.. difficult to explain, complicated. Haha~ That's why facebook got this complicated relationship status right? Meant for people like us.

After meeting up with Jeffery, I went to meet Diana at Orchard. Diana and Jeffery chatted on the phone until my hp got low batt. Then it just died =.= Can't even turn it on. Lucky I copied down Bao Chuan's number before it auto shut off. Anyway, I don't understand why the same issue, I told Diana and Jeffery, Diana can understand it but Jeffery can't (or takes a much longer time =.=). Then when Diana explained things to Jeffery, he can understand it but when I explained it to him, he can't. Now, is there anything wrong with his communication skills or mine? Haha~ Or should I just simply compliment that Diana has excellent communication skills. Hee~ We need to communicate more but what is ideal to me is effective communication. No need to spend so much time explaining here and there yet can understand each other thoughts.

Anyway, after talking to Diana, I realised one thing. In a relationship, both sides got to compromise. But what is ideal is to find someone matching so that there is minimal compromise. That would be so perfect but some people take a lifetime still cannot find such a person. Actually, I've found the person.. She's Diana. Haha~ If only she's a guy or I'm a guy. That would be wonderful. We have never quarreled in our 10 years of friendship. So that day, we tried to quarrel but cannot leh. She irritated me, I scolded her but she just laughed it off. WTH~ Like that how to pick a quarrel? Okie, I know we are so damn bo liao.

But come to think of it, we do match what. We think quite alike. For eg, we both think that even if in a relationship, we can still befriend the opposite sex and go out with them. Even if it's a one-to-one. If my bf and I don't think alike, surely we'll argue over this then one side got to compromise. But whichever side who compromises, won't be that happy right? I mean, there will always be this tinge of unhappiness mah. So isn't it great to find someone who thinks like you? Like for eg, if you are the clingy type and your partner is the clingy type, both of you can stick to each other. How perfect! If you aren't the clingy type, and your partner aren't the clingy type, both of you will also be happy and stress-free. Haha~ Coz I know it gets stressful and 烦 if someone always clings onto you. It's not that the person doesn't love you or anything. It's just that everyone has their own different needs. Some people just need more personal space and time than others. Okie, so now I wonder.. Is it better to work together to compromise or search for the person who matches very well with you? I think Eileen and Jake match quite well together as both of them think along the same line. Anyway, I think trust is very important. If you don't allow your partner to go out with members of the opposite sex, it's like not trusting them. Not trusting that they can withstand seduction. I would rather my bf has the ability to reject seduction, etc.. than not allow him to meet with members of the opposite sex.

Back to the day. I met Bao Chuan at Newton MRT at 6pm. After that, we went to Sheraton Towers for dessert buffet. Haha~ Some people have been asking me where is the dessert buffet. Well, it's located in Sheraton Towers, The Dining Room. Nearest MRT is Newton and it starts from 6:30pm to 10:30pm. It costs $18++ per person but there's a 1 for 1 discount if you use Amex card. Wah.. free advertising. Anyway, that place has a nice ambience, the food is okie. I like the strawberry shortcake.

The juicy bag which I like =)


Our dessert spread.


Nice scenery outside.


My fav - Strawberry shortcake xD


Bao Chuan~


Me!


The interior.


More.


The exterior.


Wow, I've already uploaded quite a number of photos here. More can be found on my facebook. Lazy to upload everything here. Anyway, after the buffet, Bao Chuan wanna eat some proper food so we walked over to Newton to continue eating. OMG!! After that, we waited for Bao Chuan's bf to come and fetch us home. Was completely drained out by the time I reached home. Didn't even bother to charge my hp.

One of my friends just broke up. Maybe should be counted as 2 coz I know both the guy and the gal. But not gonna blog about them. Don't wanna say people's things. Just wish them all the best =)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009



I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

This song is so cute. Haha~

PS: Every girl just wants a guy who she can depend on and loves her wholeheartedly.

Monday, June 1, 2009

OMG! I can't sleep again. So many sleepless night. Just now I just pulled out a strand of white hair on my eyebrow. Really OMG lah! Since when I've got white hair? Haiz~~ Sad!

Anyway, today as I was feeling upset on msn, Verlene and Chris asked me out. Ha~ Thanks guys (but Verlene is a gal). Chris' friend, Daniel, joined us. We went to the flea market at China Square. Ah~ Many toys there. The pink minnie mouse which I saw in those "catch stuff toys" machine is sold there. And only for $15 (maybe still can bargain). Hm.. Think it will be cheaper than when you try catching it from the arcade bah. Anway, we walked from Cityhall to China Square in the scorching heat. So damn hot lah, melting liao. Regretted walking, should have taken the bus =.=

Went to Hans for drinks. Wah.. the Hans at Raffles Place area is damn big and nice lah. Too bad I didn't bring my camera out. I had coke float. Haha~

After that, we walked back to Cityhall and I met Jeanette for dinner. After dinner, we went to explore Raffles Hotel. Haha~ Photos are in Jeanette's camera. After that, we just walked down to Bugis and shop. Am totally tired out from walking here and there.

But anyway, thanks to everyone for trying to cheer me up. I appreciate it =) And thank you Diana for calling me when you came back to Singapore tonight. Just came back already concern about me. I miss complaining/confiding in you lah! But glad that you had fun in Sydney. See you on Tuesday =)